Saturday, January 19, 2008

argh!

she's really getting on my nerves.
madness.
so do i even start preparing my materials?
what crap is this.
i can't wait to leave and say bye.
what a dreadful experience.
whenever i think of it, it makes me feel like crying.
disastrous.

anyway, had a great time ytd with the girls at west coast park!
next holiday destination: west coast park!
happy 19th birthday izzah!

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Wednesday, January 16, 2008

:(

it was a mistake to vent my unhappiness and anger towards hui fen about others. in actual fact, it was my mistake. i didnt mean to hurt her in any way. i guess i was at the wrong state of my mind.trying to agree to others and putting in my words. alot of times i just wear a mask, trying to be nice in front of my friends, yet i'm being a devil behind their backs. i'm learning, and i'm controlling myself.

i shouldn't had raised my voice.
i shouldn't had blabbed my thoughts.
i had totally forgotten about it.
NO GOSSIPING.
i've lost this battle.
deep down in my heart,
they will, and are still my friends.

no one to blame.
my expectation could had been too high.
or rather should i say,
i was ambitious.

i'm not pin pointing to anyone,
but seriously, i was the main culprit.

sorry guys if you were hurt.
sorry hui fen that such thing actually happened.
(not sure if you still read my blog)
but still, i love you.

and grace, i know you won't or seldom read blogs.
i still must say,
i love you no matter what.
always the great sister in Christ.

people make mistakes and so do i.
learn to forgive.
accept and love the person.
i'm still learning to love everyone.
give me some time.

today was my Math assessment.
one word.
failure.
management was not very good.
lesson was boring.
lesson was long.
i'm still trying to accept this fact and get over with it.
but i can't.
but i'll rem,
i'm doing for God.
not for my teacher, children nor myself.
help me Father.
and my friends too.



atleast i've vent some of my anger and sadness.
my brain juice is totally low.
and i feel like drinking ribena!
i can't wait for this sem to end.
i need 6 days of sleep! to recover those lackness of sleep.
pray for me peeps.
thanks.
God Bless.

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Wednesday, January 9, 2008

my past few days!

Sunday
rushing SYC and DPIP assignments.
slept at 5am!

Monday
rushing DPIP and EC assignments
slept at 2+ am!

Tuesday
rushing FP assignment
slept at 130am!

i barely slept for at least 7hours a day!
and by the end of the week, probably now,
i'm like a zombie.
kinda brain dead.
too tired to think of any thing!

oh well, today had FP language arts assessment.
supervisor commented things that i did well and ways to improve the lesson.
i was really, really relieved and glad that it went on quite well.
didn't really feel that nervousness.
Thank You Lord Father.
it's really His blessing!

had CD test too.
pass can liao, didn't even study.

nearing to exam dates!
but there's still assignments to complete.
FP math lesson and learning corner are worrying me!
all the best seh.
i know kinda last minute, but sorry, i need to do things step by step.
seriously, i need a day off to sleep!

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Saturday, January 5, 2008

1st post of 08!

Blessed new year to all!
first and forth most,
thank God for bringing me through trials and temptations,
fun and joy,
sad and anger!
without His everlasting love, i can never be loved.
first week back at school was tiring!
many assignments to be submitted soon.
and thanks to watching ER, had been sleeping late too.
i need to pull up my socks!
exam dates are out!
15th Feb (fri) DPIP
18th Feb (mon) CD 2.2
20th Feb (wed) SF
all the best to me.
i'm still struggling to do my quiet times and going to tuan qi!
ive choose the wrong choices.
it's really the CHOICES i choose.
i can choose to be good.
choices!
i really cant wait for my holidays!
do pray for me peeps!(:
in whatever you do, praise the Lord!
amen!

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